I just have this feeling something big is going to happen. I feel the anticipation in my blood, the excitement wash through my body, but also this anxiety I cannot seem to settle. It feels like I have so much to do, so much I want to do, that it becomes overwhelming. Nonetheless, I quiet the noise because I know what’s coming is something that will change my life for the better.
Life feels brighter lately. It feels like I’m experiencing life for the first time. I have been making a large effort to shift my mindset and focus my energy inwards. The world didn’t end when my heart broke. You cannot have the good without the bad. That’s what I tell myself. You must relish in the deep pain before you can find pleasure in true happiness. Yin -yang, the sun and moon, darkness and light; the only things that allow you to greater appreciate their counterpart in their absence. But I feel so connected to light right now. I’ve been reading wisdom books to help in shifting my mentality and I have been working to be consistent in everything I do. Incorporating the five agreements into my life is also changing my world for the better. Slowly, I am adapting all of the qualities I admire in others, taking accountabilities for the qualities I’m not so proud of, and learning to love the present version of myself while I still have her.
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